It's a gray day outside. The clouds are heavy and thick, and I'm thinking it's going to give us some wetness. It probably won't be snow, but that's just as well. There'll be plenty of snow later.
I admit to being a bit melancholy today--or maybe just reflective. As I've been doing my usual chores, I keep remembering that we'll be moving on soon, and this won't be home anymore. It's tempting to be sad about this, but instead, I keep finding things to remember: the nights we spent sitting up during thunderstorms too loud to let us sleep, drinking tea and eating peanut butter and crackers; the hours we worked together in the greenhouse and field, joking and talking or just being quiet; the time he almost convinced me that flushing spiders down the toilet could trigger the zombie apocalypse...
There was the day we found out we were expecting. That was a wonderful day. I keep seeing all the places we've...you know, and some worked well and others didn't. There were the special meals I cooked, and all the things I've learned and all the things I've failed at and all the triumphs. There was that week my back went haywire and he took care of me, and the times I've tended to him from his injuries and allergies.
There were cider pressing and pickling, picnics and parties, the joys and pains of our first pregnancy, teaching myself to knit, books read, fights fought (foreign and domestic), and all the little ways in which you have to get used to each other.
It hasn't even been a year, and there've been so many changes and so much learned. So much to remember, so much to let go.
But I think the best thing I've found out is that everything that's worth keeping, the best and important things, we're taking with us because they're part of us. And we'll be able to build new memories in our new home, wherever it is, because we'll still have each other.
...God, I'm so mushy. If he reads this, he'll barf.
Today, my tasks reflect catching up and trying to stage everything for our move.
How I served His Lordship today:
Made breakfast and washed dishes
Fenris Walkies as needed
Baked bread (yes, we ate most of the loaf yesterday)
Washed more baby stuff (!)
Took a breather and rested
Did some more couponing because why not
Made more turkey wraps for lunch because they are tasty
Harvested last of herbs and vacuum-packed
Sorted through things for moving
Realized there's still some scorching on the basement wall from the junk fire months ago and I'll have to clean that up
Made supper and washed dishes